now that i have all this free time with ryan working all week (this week he picked up a shift on wednesday, and he'll most likely continue to do that) i have a big opportunity. with all this free time, i NEED to start exercising. i spent a good deal of time last night searching for what kind of exercise is what i need. well, obviously i need to be doing aerobics in some form. i think i also want to do like one day of belly dancing a week, mostly because it looks fun and i already love the music, and because it will help in the weight loss/toning of certain muscles. the reason i haven't exercised up to this point is because i feel REALLY STUPID doing it, especially if i know someone is here who might watch. when i wanted to lose a couple of pounds for the wedding, i exercised in the shower (seriously) or waited until ryan went to bed and did it in the bedroom with the door closed. yeah, i know it sounds silly, but it's the same reason i don't dance - i look like an idiot. that of course all stems back to the self confidence. so, my conclusion is this: if i can exercise, i can lose weight, if i lose weight, i will increase my self confidence. easy enough, right?
by the way, i did manage to find an online belly dancing video tutorial. it's egyptian belly dancing, and from what i've watched so far, the instructor is great. she teaches you the steps and coordination, and after you watch the lesson, you scroll down for more information. she gives you the name of the artist and song that she dances to, a short biography and sometimes music video, and then there is a video of a belly dancer in a movie sort of thing below that, as well as a kind of history of that dancer. on the third lesson there is also a couple of warm up videos (cause y'know, if you're gonna exercise, you need to warm up first!) link: www.bellydaneboulevard.com i heart arabic music! part of the reason i want to do belly dance is just that - the music. another reason is i think it will help with my hips, because it will undoubtedly loosen those babies up. and also because i think that i could rock a belly dance.
yeah, i'm kind of excited about this. there's a distinct possibility that if i can do this exercise crap, i can lose some weight and build some muscle and attain some form of self confidence, and that would help me in LITERALLY nearly every single facet of my life.
wish me luck!